“there wasn’t a week went by but that on at least one day I couldn’t eat anything for breakfast but a couple of aspirins and a prairie oyster”. - Ian Fleming, Thunderball

“I think you’re confusing suicide with self-destruction. Almost none of us commit suicide, and almost all of us self-destruct. In some way, in some part of our lives. We drink, or we smoke, we destabilize the good job… and a happy marriage. But these...

“I think you’re confusing suicide with self-destruction. Almost none of us commit suicide, and almost all of us self-destruct. In some way, in some part of our lives. We drink, or we smoke, we destabilize the good job… and a happy marriage. But these aren’t decisions, they’re… they’re impulses…

Isn’t the self-destruction coded into us? Programmed into each cell?”

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Sometimes when I am at my lowest or reminded of trauma I would hate to relive, I reach into my heart and pocket and bask in the presence of my tiny Zatarain’s Jambalaya box.


Then I remember that everything is fucking ridiculous. My worries, suffering, luck.


The universe is just chaos and chance. Be kind.

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Eumorpha fasciatus.

The Banded Sphinx Moth has always been good company to me.

When the past makes you feel weak, you must simply become stronger. That has always been the way of things.